My PURPLE World

Did you hear?!?

2007-11-06T13:03:00.000-05:00

Hola! Just wanted to let you know I have moved to a new blog home :-)

http://mypurpleworld.wordpress.com/

If you would be so kind as to update your bookmarks and blog rolls :-)

It is still WAY under construction, but that is where I've moved my blog to. Give me just some time to make it just as purdy as this one was. Also, if you know of some talented someone who can give my blog a MUCH needed face lift, PLEASE let me know.

Besos!!

*B*

Tragedy!

2007-11-06T10:11:00.000-05:00

Well, not THAT serious, but almost! So I found my dress I wanted last night while browsing through Savvy at Nordstrom. I just knew in my head there was no way the Nordstrom by me would have the dress I want, but lo and behold, there.it.was.!!!!! I grabbed it and RAN to the fitting room!

I was SOOOOOO excited! I peeled off my clothes so fast and put the dress on! Fabulous....uh, NO! my boobs! They are TOOOOO BIGGGG for the top of the dress! DAMMIT! I mean, it was indecent the way so much boob was showing LOL! Now, I am a fan of showing off my cleavage, b/c well, I have a lot, but that was TOO.MUCH!

I was so sad, but not for long! me and my girl began plotting on ways this dress could work out! We thought of many many ways the dress could work and as of right now we are still searching for the perfect sequin bra! I will update you all once the dress is MINE and doesn't look so...indecent! LOL!!!

Having big boobs really isn't all it's cracked up to be! Trust!

*B* over and out!

FREE!!!!

2007-11-06T09:56:00.000-05:00

Don't you LOVE that feeling when you are FINALLY over someone!?! OMGoodness! It's like THE best feeling in the world!!! Or when you remained friends with someone you just knew was for you and you realize, nope, we are so better off as friends! It's so liberating I tell you! Wonderful!!!

My epiphany was yesterday, but I also think it was culminating all weekend when I had lots of time to think. I just felt so free! so so freeeeeeeee!!! *big smile*

Wow, that's it, just had to share - I have lost my focus - I will be back later LOL!

But it's just a sweet, sweet fantasy, baby

2007-11-04T21:30:00.000-05:00

So I'm having a GREAT dream! Fabulous, dammit! I mean it's pretty vivid, my mind is working over time, and in the background I hear Mariah crooning, "So deep in my daydreams..." But I keep on 'dreaming' I will set it up for you...

I'm sitting in my ginormous kitchen eating a fruit bowl, watching the big screen tv of my press conference I had just had that afternoon. I was relaxing, just finished texting with my hubby; he was on a flight home from a conference. And through the door breezes my ultra fabulous and fly man! He surprised me by coming home early! Ofcourse I jump off the granite countertop to meet him with a kiss! We have this passionate exchange of kisses and "I Love You, Baby's"...and Mariah..."When I close my eyes/You come and you take me"

So anyways! He wants to hear ALL about my fantastic press conference; which by the way, he attended, but I didn't find out until he told me, stinker! I'm gushing about this and that, and that handsome devil is sitting back with this sly grin! He then tells me he was there, that he left the conference early to see his baby! Oh, it was SO on then!!!

And no, this was NOT a sex dream! This dream was significant for the simple fact that we had been married for two years and for the first time EVER in a dream about marriage or kids for me, I can see the man's face! So I'm going on with my 'daydream'/ fantasy - whatever!

We are just enjoying each other, talking about how we are going to take over the world, etc etc - normal discussions that take place in our household, while we are at work, and via text messages :-) We are SO having a moment and he looks me dead in the eye and says, "Babe, remember what I told you my father said, about having a family?" He looked so cute in his shirt and tie - I said, "Yeah..."

He goes on to tell me that he thinks it's time that we start thinking about a family. I panic, duh! My business has just taken off and I'm finally living out my dreams as well as he living his! Why bring kids into it - But he was SO serious. -Mariah - "Feels like I'm dreaming/But I'm not sleeping"

And that ladies and gentlemen, is when *B* woke up; with a huge smile on her face. But I woke up and just smiled. I smiled at the thought of me and him actually being together and being married. I smiled that my mind is always painting pictures that are in my heart. I smiled because I just couldn't get Mariah's damn song out of my head! - hey, dreams do come true ;-)

I'm in heavenWith my boyfriend
My lovely boyfriend
There's no beginning
And there is no end
Feels like I'm dreaming
But I'm not sleeping

(It's just a) sweet, sweet fantasy, baby
When I close my eyes
You come and you take me
(On and on and on)
So deep in my daydreams
But it's just a sweet, sweet fantasy, baby

Let's focus

2007-11-01T23:06:00.000-05:00

on this...fiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiine man! YUMMMMMMMMMY!!!!!!!! :-) Sweet dreams to me indeed!

pic copped from Bossip

It's been a long time!

2007-11-01T21:09:00.000-05:00

I had SUCH a crazy weekend. (read, actually crazy, and no not crazy fun!) so I had to recover from that. Then this week has just been full of SO much to do and not enough time for *B* to get her beauty rest so I have been so not 100% this week! I'm not sure I'll be there until Saturday when I can sleep in, go to the gym and work it out for a couple hours, then go party it up fabulous Saturday night.

I know what you all have been up to because I have been perusing all of your blogs to keep me going through the LONG boring days at work! I know I have been tagged by Busy Bee and Skinny Black Chick; I will get to that. :-)

In the midst of everything too, I missed my blog ONE year anniversary!!! It all started on October 19, 2006. I loved reading all the blogs and decided the world needed my P.O.V. on some things too! I definitely couldn't decide which direction to take my blog, so I did a little bit of this and a little bit of that. There are PLENTY fashion blogs, all of which I love. PLENTY of gossip blogs, again, all of which I love. But I found I connected more to the blogs that people used as their outlet, their public diary; putting their thoughts out there for strangers to read and comment on if they so wished.

I found that I truly enjoyed writing my thoughts out ranging from fashion, religion, life, shopping, boys, men, relationships, work etc. I felt I couldn't fully commit to just ONE topic! If I had, I'd have like 5 different blogs by now!!! Anywhoo, I am having my talented boy give my blog a MUCH needed facelift and while looking for images, I was torn as to what my header and background should be. I'm not going to change the direction of my blog, I like it how it is; I may just start another one though, dedicated to a special project that I'm working on ;-).

I (heart) all of you who frequent my blog and leave your comments. It's definitely a small blogworld out here as I have discovered many bloggers right here in the good ole D M V!!!

Anyways, I had to write because I haven't blogged in quite some time! I am mucho distracted by my DVRd episodes of General Hospital so I have lost focus!

Besos!!!

Temporis enim vicissitudo

2007-10-23T10:44:00.000-05:00

Yup, it's time for a change and in a B I G way. I really feel like the Corporate world just isn't me; not in the least. There is still this huge part of me who is a business-minded Fashionista that wants to open and run her chic boutique and screw working for others. She also wants to go back to school to get her MBA and she kicks herself for not staying an extra yr for a Master's in Merchandising/Textiles, BUT she had to get out of Tallahassee, quick, fast and in a hurry...

I digress. I really need to get on it, like for real. I need to pull out my business plan that I wrote up for a college project and update it. Was talking to my boy who is such the entrepreneur and so on his grind and is so inspiring because he works hard for what he wants, sets goals and achieves them. I was whining about work and how I want to retire; what, don't laugh, I've been working since I was 14, I'm tired of this mess.

Anyways, I was whining and was like, "when can I retire?"
he says, "when we are both rich."
I laugh, I'm like, "uh, when's that?"
He says, "when your boutique is on and poppin and I can do a special piece on it in my mag."

I love that he has so much ambition. I've known him for years and each year he is just on the come up; smart man. But he isn't the first one to bring up the whole boutique thing to me in the recent months. As you all know, I hated my job as a recruiter b/c of the company in which I worked. While looking for jobs, a couple of my friends asked if I would be interested in going back into fashion, somehow. But that's just it, that is the magic word; 'somehow'.

I am not interested in design, I def do NOT want to go back to retail management, I am not freshly graduated with this bright, sunny outlook of what could be; I've been out of school for 5 yrs now and have yet to establish a career path...blah

I'm not sure I know what to do, but there are two definite things I'm going to do; 1. Pray Until Something Happens and 2. Get my business plan back out and begin work on it, pronto!

*B* will be the owner of the boutique she has always wanted; just in time for Nate's magazine launch. Gotta love friends who keep you inspired and focused.

*besos*

My Lipgloss be poppin!

2007-10-22T10:04:00.001-05:00

Found this over @ Robin's Blog and how cute! I guess it's sorta-kinda semi accurate lol! So, what flavor of lip gloss are you?!

You Are Raspberry Chocolate Lip Gloss

You tend to approach life as a fun game - being playful at every turn.
You're a flirt with flair, and your the type most likely to surprise your date.

But you're popularity doesn't stop with guys... you've got a great group of girlfriends too!
You're fresh, aggressive, and more than a little sassy. The tangy taste of raspberry and watermelon goes great on your lips.
What Flavor Lip Gloss Are You?

Found it!!!

2007-10-22T09:16:00.000-05:00

Remember my post on how I SO needed this dress Ashanti was wearing well, I sent the dress to my good friend Fashion Kitty to track down also. Well it so happens that I checked my email Saturday afternoon and someone named Lauren found the EXACT dress!!! It's by LaRock, which I adore immensely, but alas, since I don't have my 33% discount from managing at Nordstrom, do not purchase this line anymore haha! AND my friend from work got an email over the weekend from Intermix, where this dress can be purchased for a whopping $298 + tax and shipping...

So now I am contemplating how I can finagle purchasing this dress without feeling INSANE for spending that much on a JERSEY knit frock with FABULOUS sequins!!! I NEED this dress! I am hoping I can find it in the light heathered grey that I want, but if not I will settle for the black version because it is equally just as fabulous! Thanks Lauren and Erica for helping me find my dress!!! Besos to you ladies!!!

**UPDATE**
My homey Fashion Kitty LaRok's! haha! She's the one who found it for me!!! Yippeeee!!!

*B*

I'm down with OPB (other people's blogs)

2007-10-16T13:50:00.000-05:00

Since I have NOTHING to say today but I've signed into Blogger like 50, 11 times I might as well post something! So check out what these other blogs are talking bout:

Help me and Fashion Kitty find the dress I want!
Check out what Kesh and Kanye are saying - I love that they have blogs now!!!
You need to be reading Robin's blog! Both her personal and Hip Hop blog
Click to see Fall's fabulous trend of high collared coats at I Like Her Style! and where you can find one!
The ever-fabulous K Dukes never disappoints with her witty writing
And finally, go Shake Your Beauty over at Tia's blog and get your weekly dose of fabulous fabulousness for all things beauty for us brown chicks!

Happy reading peoples!!!!!!

Blogger's block

2007-10-16T10:46:00.000-05:00

Nothing is really on my mind that I can formulate into a blog posting so, I will be back momentarily...

In my head/heart

2007-10-15T22:01:00.000-05:00

I woke up mad early this morning with all these thoughts and words swirling around my head, flipped open my laptop and wrote this down...

The day I met you was filled with so much -
Excitement, anticipation, nervousness, but
All of that was non existant when
You kissed me when I kissed you
Nothing else mattered in the world except, us

Wrapped up in your arms, looking into your eyes
Looking into mine, seeking, searching, peering into -
My heart, but you already had it because
You were my Sunshine

Then I hit send and closed my laptop and haven't checked that email all day...

Water or Frutopia?

2007-10-11T14:11:00.000-05:00

Bare with me, if you will as I explain. Say you go to your fridge and there is a sugar-laden, bad-for-you Frutopia and your Brita pitcher filled to the brim with clean, crisp, good-for-you water. Which do you choose?

So I was talking to my boy about puffy, dark circles and how he can get rid of them. ('no homo' as guys say, hey, we all gotta take care of ourselves!) I suggested number one, that he drink plenty of water; Water is good for you, good for your health and well being. Well he then went on to say how he only drinks water, A. after too much drinking and B. if it's a last resort. This is where it gets interesting. He comes up with an analogy on Frutopia and water and how it relates, in his mind, to women. Enjoy the following IM convo betwixt us:

Him: man i drink water
Him: when im too drunk
Him: besides that
Him: all i drink is juice
Him: and soda
Me: see
Him: and redbull
Me: all i drink is water, green tea and when i go out alcohol
Him: man
Him: i be mad when theres only water to drink
Him: that shyt be like a last resort
Me: LOL
Him: like fuck
Him: i guess i'll drink some of this
colorless flavorless liquid
Him: but
water is like a 4 or 5 chick
Him: she
good for u
Him: and will hold u down
Him: but u want that dime piece
Me: LOL what!
Him: that exotic chick
Him: thas gonna brake your heart
Him: u wan that fruitopia chick
Him: not water
Him: water
always there
Him: frutopia is limited
time
Me:HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAH
Me: wth
Him: lol
Me: fine drink your sugary liquids
Him: no
Him: help me
Him: i neeed water
Me: LOL
Him: water
Me: but really though, in your analogy of comparing women to water and frutopia, LOL, why would u want a bangin chick thats ultimately going to break your heart when you could have that girl who's always going to be there no matter what?
Him: cuz
Him: fruitopia taste good
Him: even
though its bad for u
Him: that join is
bangin on the way down
Me: lol and
Him: i dunno
Him: water is aiight
Him: i'll drink it when i have to
Him: but best believe if i have some fruitopia
Him: im a miss it
Me: hhahahahahahaahahahahaha
Him: when its not around
Him: and think about it
Him: even though its not good
Him: and i'll drink water
Him: cuz its always there
Him: but deep down inside
Him: im imaginin water is fruitopia
Him: smh
Me:LOL

So there you have it. Ladies, are you your man's water or his Frutopia??? Fellas, is this how you really feel??

*B*

It's finally FALL!!!

2007-10-11T08:53:00.000-05:00

YAY!!! It's finally the crisp, cool, bright fall day that I have been waiting for! All this weirdo 90 degree weather in October threw me off a bit, but today it's officially Fall in VA! That means I got to pull out my fav boots from last year and rock them with my cute black dress and bracelet-length, cropped swing coat! Oh how I love Fall and all the layering that you can do because of the fabulous weather!!!

I.NEED.This.Dress!!!

2007-10-10T20:04:00.000-05:00

IGNORE the person wearing this magnificent dress and lets focus on the sheer FABULOUSNESS that is that dress! That dress! was made for ME!!! It has *B* stamped ALL over it! Whoever this dress is made by had me in mind, fo sho!!!! They knew that I love to show off my assets (why not flaunt it if you got it, right!) and how I LOVE a nice short, thigh skimming hemline! as well as all.those.damn.SEQUINS!!!!! Bottom line, this dress must be mine! MINE!!! It's so damn perfect for my upcoming weekend in SoBe!!! oooooooh yeah!!!!!!

My So-Called Life

2007-10-03T13:00:00.000-05:00

Ummmm, who didn't want Jordan Catalano to be their boyfriend?! Who loved the match of Angela and Jordan together??? Who couldn't wait for her to ditch class and go makeout with him under the bleachers?!?! LOL!!!

I LOVED this show! I used to sneak and watch it on MTV because I knew my mom wouldn't approve. Why? I don't know, I guess because it dealt with 'adult' things that an eighth grader shouldn't be exposed to, maybe? Anyways, this show quickly became one of my favorites; so much so that when I found out it still came on on Noggin at 5 AM, I set my DVR to record each show! LOL!!!!! I'm not even kidding!

That lovely shade of red that Angela dyed her hair has been my inspiration for YEARS! Those of you who know me know I love to change up my hair, especially the color! That red, that vibrant, brilliant red has enthralled me ever since I was a wee 8th grader lol!

Anyways, I am all too thrilled to find out that the DVD series will be released on October 30 with a book too! I am SO pre ordering from Amazon! What about you? Did you love this show as much as I???

Oh, I LOVE it!

2007-10-02T11:26:00.001-05:00

This makeup is mf FIIIIIIIIEEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRCE!!!!! Ms. J Alexander would cream himself! LOL! But really though, this has me wanting to go home on my break and play in all of my MAC pigments! OMG! I am SO rocking this makeup ASAP! Flicks via Ultimate Kelis

Girlfriends Re-cap

2007-10-01T20:27:00.000-05:00

OMG! am I Joan? I am so scared. I don't want to be her, I DON'T.WANT.TO.BE.HER. OMGoodness!!!!!! I saw some of myself in her. The kirking out on your man just because...freaking out then wishing you could take it all back...being, thinking and acting IRRATIONAL! omg! I saw a piece of *B* in that CRAZY Joan. Oh boy, I'm going to do some serious soul searching, I CAN'T BE JOAN!

Did anyone else watch the new premiere of Girlfriends? Thanks to Southern_Lady for leting me know this was on tonight!!!

What character do you identify with???

True love? or a front?

2007-10-01T19:20:00.000-05:00

Either way, I think this pic is too cute! What girl wouldn't appreceiate a seat on her man's lap as they both flip through the pages of the latest European fashion mag? Come on, you know you would love it ;-)

Picture copped from Crunk+Disorderly

Pantone revived the Fashionista

2007-09-27T08:44:00.000-05:00

Wow! So I woke up with Pantone on my mind. Like I was seriously contemplating the seriousness of Pantone on the world; the fashion world to be exact. And how it infiltrates every single aspect of our lives, wardrobes and fashion choices whether we realize it or not.

Remember that scene in Devil Wears Prada where Andy laughs at the girl trying to decide between two similar looking turqouise belts that she claimed were the 'same.' Didn't you cringe a little inside when Miranda went off on her about finding her yucky blue sweater in the bottom of a bargain bin at some store LOL! and she sternly pointed out that the sweater color had been hand picked for her as evidenced in a collection showing Cerulean gowns...oh I could go on forever, I swear! (P.S. - I found it on youtube but it has it has been taken down, booooo)

Anyways, what brought this on is my new OPI nail polish that I bought yesterday called Lincoln Park at Midnight; a cute sparkly version of the Lincoln Park After Dark that I so loved! So I was so much in love with the new Russian Collection with its rich, dark hues and this one polish color that looked so inky black with a touch of purple sparkles, but when you put it on it was a fabulous navy! OMG! I am SO inspired to begin my hunt for the perfect Fall pieces to compliment my new nail polish favorites!

Yeah, yeah I'm late on getting my Fall stuff but you have no idea! I have been in a fashion funk lately and haven't been inspired. I mean I let my September Vogue sit on my table, STILL wrapped in plastic for about two weeks before I even opened it! Then when I did, I found ONE piece to be inspired by and that was a fabulous pair of Ferragamo sky-scrapers! Aren't they fabulous! I love them to pieces, seriously and with this Chanel dress I saw on Jennifer Aniston! You couldn't talk to me lol I'd be too bad! Ha, like I can afford these shoes or the dress, but alas! I was inspired!

So thanks to those wonderful talking heads that run Pantone, bless them, these fabulous 'Russian' inspired colors that they picked out, oh about two years ago, have revived the fashionista in me!!!

Peace out peoples!!!

*B*

Nailah O Franklin - Missing

2007-09-22T13:16:00.000-05:00

I was sent a Myspace bulletin from a friend who used to live in Chicago about Nailah O Franklin who has been missing from Illinois since Tuesday. I don't know about anyone else, but just reading the articles makes me shudder. Apparently, just recently, she had been receiving threatening text messages and phone calls from someone she used to date. She called the police to file a report and they told her she needed to get a protective order. She didn't have a chance to get one just yet because she has been busy working; she's a Phamaceutical rep.(Read the articles below)

This world is SUCH a crazy place! If you have facebook, there is a group, probably more now, but a group called "Supporting the search for Nailah O Franklin" Her family has secured a location near her condo to meet and distribute flyers. Also, tonight there is a prayer meeting for her that will gather outside of her condo building. I truly hope and pray that Nailah will be found alive and returned to her family.

Here are some articles:

http://abclocal.go.com/wls/story?section=local&id=5668036

http://cbs2chicago.com/topstories/local_story_263222929.html

Where's his twin brother or something?

2007-09-21T18:51:00.000-05:00

Over at People.com, Hillary 'big teeth' Duff was surprised, A WEEK EARLY, for her b-day by her new boy with a...G-Wagon with "a big red bow on top"! And that, Gentlemen, is what a birthday surprise is! Apparently, there are more to come...prolly in the form of jewels or clothes or shoes, or should I say 'and.'

Oh to be a Hollywood starlet who can't sing, can't dance, gets skinny for fun, parties every night, dates people who buy their gf SUVs that cost like 100g's...well not really, but you know!

Hey! Have a fantastic weekend folks! I know I am!!!

Old hags and the City?

2007-09-20T19:17:00.001-05:00

Yo, I know those of you who are fans of Sex and the City may share my sentiments, or maybe not. Below is an IM convo b/t me and my homey. Really though, why are they making the movie now? why!

*B*:ok so what r ur thoughts on the new movie sex and the city movie
FKitty:i posted about carries outfit on styledash i dont knwo if its up yet
FKitty: those bitches are too old for their antics is my opinion
*B*: lol
FKitty: i mean they are like 40
FKitty:running around sleeping with men
FKitty: acting like they are 20
FKitty: i cant watch that shit, can i?
*B*: lol yup
*B*:i don tknoe
*B*:i feel like they r tryna make it some pop icon - esque movie
*B*:but its been too long
*B*: and they r OLD
FKitty: i know
*B*: and miranda is a lesbian
FKitty: hahaha oh yeah
*B*:and i dont want to see kims's tits
*B*: and SJP already looks like an old witch
*B*:and well who cares about charlott
*B*: and why is that american idol in the movie
*B*: its all too weird
*B*: u know the theatre will be full of house moms wearing damn big flower pins!
FKitty: hahahaaaaaaaaaaaa
FKitty: which damn american idol is in it?
FKitty: J Hud?
FKitty: are they getting a black friend
FKitty: LOL
FKitty: or is she gonna be serving them cosmos
FKitty:damn movie
*B*: lol
*B*: shes going to be carries assistant!
*B*:assistan for what?!
*B*: carrie sits at her apt and types on her macbook like once a day
FKitty: LOL
*B*: what does she need an assistant 4
FKitty: this movie is gonna blow
*B*: u know it!

End scene. I really wish I had my own TV Show...I may take YouTube for a spin...

Peace!

Missing

2007-09-20T19:06:00.000-05:00

in action. Wow, I haven't posted since 9/13. Below post is important. I had it on draft and just finished it today. Read it. Regular postings will be back :-)

I know you missed me.

*B*

JESUS worked it out!

2007-09-17T20:54:00.000-05:00

Hi. I know I have been MIA but well, I've been going through it. And well, one storm is over and I am extremely happy about it; thrilled actually. Here is the story of how being steadfast in the Lord, keeping my eyes on Him and praying faithfully, changed my situation and strengthened my faith.

My job situation was NEVER what I thought it was going to be, so one month into my new job, I began looking for work(June). So I kept working there and praying. Working and praying. Well, things got really bad, but I never lost sight and my faith was stronger than ever. (I know I have a way to go, but this is the strongest I've ever been in my life)

So, basically, I had to quit my job. I did this last Wednesday. I had taken off work on Monday because I just couldn't take it anymore to look for jobs. I went to work Tuesday and set up a meeting with my company on Wenesday to address my concerns. I told them my concerns, they didn't care, nothing was solved, I quit; I had to.

I left the office and went directly to Kinkos and made copies of my resume and went to temp agencies. Went home and made more phone calls and sent out more resumes and applied for more jobs. Thursday, I go to the Washington Post job fair. Talk to some people, pass out my resume etc etc. I forgot to mention my church. My church and the message I receive from it weekly, is simply amazing. Revival was so good that Monday.

So, I wake up Friday morning to a phone call from a contact I had in the past. They needed to fill a position immediately. I sent her an updated copy of my resume, she sent it over and I got the job. Praise Jesus! While it is only temporary, it.is.a.job!

I couldn't be happier! Seriously. I never once worried about my situation, ever. I continued to pray and lean on the Lord. He will always provide for His children. I never worried about paying my bills, or putting gas in my truck or getting groceries; why, because it's already done and Jesus worked it out and continues to work it out.

My God is an Awesome God! I had to share with you all. We are always going to have storms in our lives, but it is how you choose to deal with and take those storms head on; by prayer and faith. That is it.

The Lord blesses us so much that His blessings overflow! He blesses us in such a way that others will see just how blessed we are. I had to share! The Lord is the best thing in my life. He is the only constant, unchanging force in my life. With that, I can sleep at night, peacefully.

Thanks for listening.

*B*

What's on B's mind

2007-09-13T23:56:00.000-05:00

I hope you all got that Kanye CD...burn it, buy it whatever, it's 'hot'

Why haven't we seen many pictures of Nicole Richie? Guess now that she's not a coke snorting anorexic maniac, no paparazzi want to snap her pic? - well I want to see if this frail thing can/is carrying a baby

Why oh WHY did Britney 'fat mom arms' Spears make my eyes fall out of my face on Sunday? Watching the performance on the web and tv just makes it so much worse!

I have a crush on this Island kid who has the most luscious long hair! LOL!

Has anyone ever seen this shyt TV show Celebrity Rap Superstar? Why is Jason Wahler on there of the Hills and Laguna Beach fame? whyyyyyyyyyyyyy

How come everyone that does Celeberity Fit Club blow up like 2 months after the show's off? Let me tell you what! If I had nothing to do all day but be a celeb, I'd be the skinniest bitch EVER! trust that!

Speaking of which, I am going to follow in my homey's footsteps and get on the tea 'diet' train! I love my green tea, but diet tea, perfect!

How come is it when you are over guys they always pop back up? Just go away forever, thanks.

I also have another crush on this guy I've known since Sophomore yr college...we'd be SO cute together! Two highly attractive go-getters...mmmm mmmm mmmm we'd be the DC power couple! lol

I am my hair! And I am going to cut it shorter. I just cut it into a blunt bob, myself, but now I need the back stacked and I am in serious need of a color overhaul! I have an idea so when I get my fundage str8, I'm going to see my Italian (read Moroccan) Lover, Aziz and have him glam up my tresses!

I am Fabulous! but, you already knew that.

That's all

Besos

*B*

It feels so good!

2007-09-08T17:59:00.000-05:00

To be able to get to a place where you can admit your wrong doings and do something about it. Last night I finally opened up to my good friend Kris about what has been going on in my life for the past 3-4 months. I knew I had to tell someone, and sorry, but I'm not getting into the whole thing on here, but I just had to get it out. The past few months I have been involved with two guys who were just NOT good for me. They didn't do anything to physically harm me, but they just weren't good guys to know.

One of them I've written about previously, The Youngin, the other I haven't ever written about b/c our relationship was quite complicated; to another level that I found out about last week. He and I have been in an intense relationship basically from meeting each other, day one. I knew that was strange, but I figured, hell, why not.

I will back up though, I met both of these guys when I was in a bad place, relationship/love life wise. I had just lost the 'love' of my life and was miserable. I coudln't have him back and that made me [feel] crazy. Anywho, so enter The Youngin and the other one.

The other one and I played roomates/husband-wife all last week and weekend. It was kind of nice having a guy around damn near 24/7, but in the back of my head I knew something was wrong. I mention last week because that was the most time we had ever spent together lol, all in each other's faces, I'm sure that's why we fought like a married couple, LOL. Anywho, so basically I felt like he was holding something back from me and when I got it out of him, I was like, wtf. Get out; of my house and life.

This week has just been a week of reflection. I haven't talked to him much, won't answer his calls etc. But when I woke up this morning after revealing to my friend what the deal was, I had to make some changes. Of which he will find out...when he calls...I changed my cell number...had to shake him the easiets way I know how. Plus, I just wanted a new number LOL.

I feel so good though! Like I really, really do! I'm so sick of meeting these bammas it's ridiculous! I swear I'ma magent for them, but NO MORE! I'm just going to sit back and relax. Take a break and do me. It's so funny how you learn so much about yourself when you are in a 'relationship.' Blah!

I just wanted to write b/c my head hurt and I was laying down, but I this blog entry kept swirling around in my head and I had to get up and write. I hope you all are having a fantastic weekend!!! If any of you are in the DC urea you should def hit up the party at Tuscana West tonight, it's gonna be bananas, as per usual!

Besos,

*B*

OMG!

2007-09-06T09:17:00.000-05:00

I might be insane!

Or life really is that crazy that I missed the FIRST day of Fashion Week! WTF!!!

And I'm more excited about watching Reggie Bush in the NFL season opener?!?!?!

What is going on here! I need to get back to my senses and back to reality! I'm going ASAP over to The New York Magazine for Fashion Week Live, and check in on my fav Fashion blogs to keep abreast because WE ALL KNOW that the damn STYLE network doesn't play any fashion shows anymore, just yucky TV for stay-at-home moms...what do they know about fashion anyways! LOL

OK, I feel alittle better knowing I can watch these shows live online, but seriously, I am slippin! And between yous and me...I haven't even hardly gotten through the first half of my Vogue *shudder* seriously, something may be a little off and I think I know what it is...

Besos!

*B*

I Forgot!!!

2007-09-04T19:39:00.000-05:00

On Friday after a free lunch of yummy sushi, I ventured over to South Moon Under just to glance around because we all know that ish is expensive, but I thought if I found something semi cute, I would just get it with my birthday coupon. Anywho, I walk in and look at the fab jewels then I see this big ass SALE sign, so I saunter back...and what do I find!!!!!!!

This hot to def, ultra sexy-liscious dress! I grabbed it and ran to the fitting room! It fit like a damn dream! It has fantabulous colors and the way it's cut shows off my most fabulous assets ;-) and my tat-tat-tattoo! I look at the price tag and wince a lil, but I wanted it anyways. (It was orig. $138 and on sale for $69) I get to the cash register and the girl is like, "This is an extra 30% off!" WHAT!!!! At that point I didn't care about anything BECAUSE I'm getting this fab dress for dirt cheap!!!

I was even more excited because I was going to LOVE and I like to pop tags and roll out the door; it's just easier to get ready when you have something new! :-) PLUS I already had shoes to go, jewelry to drape and a fantastic new clutch to wear! I was SET! I plunked down my debit card and got my dress!

It was def a hit and ofcourse, NOONE had it ;-)

Hola!!!

2007-09-04T18:23:00.000-05:00

*besos* muchos *besos*

I missed blogging and still will...this week is uh...rough. I will write, I swear, about my weekend; my weekend that caused me to damn near fall asleep at the wheel this morning while driving to work!!! My weekend was uh, crazy, but in such a good way. Anyways, all that has to be put on hold because right now...I need prayer.

PRAYER!!! Can't really go into it, but your precious *B* needs your prayers.

I appreciate you kindly ;-)

Oh and Narcist, I will be back!!! I WILL!!!!!!!

Labor Day Weekend

2007-08-30T15:41:00.000-05:00

Yo what it dew my people! lol! I suck because I haven't written here in AGES! I swear, ever since i got back from Cancun life has just been this crazy whirlwind! It still hasn't settled, but I hate neglecting My PURPLE World and you lovelies!

So, what are you all getting into this weekend???? I am going to continue to party like a Rockstar and start my weekend off at LOVE. There is nothing better than LOVE(Dream) on a long weekend. Why you ask? Because of all the out of towners...hehehe Anywho! Saturday is going to be packed! I am going to help my girls paint their place, then it's one of my friend's b-day celebration that night as well. Who knows where we are going but I'm down! I kinda hope we hit up Adam's Morgan; nothing like Adam's Morgan on a balmy Summer night!

Let's see, then Sunday is a BBQ which is going to be damn fun, but now I want to go to King's Dominion; I need some real roller coasters in my life lol! We shall see about that. Monday, my little brother is coming up from VCU so we can celebrate his birthday! I'm hoping my dad grills that day because he can THROW down!

So yeah, that's a quick snippet for you all. I've had a really great past few days and am SO looking forward to this weekend!

P.S. - how come this day is going by so slow? And how come all day yesterday I thought it was Tuesday?

Peace out yo!

*B*

My Birthday pics!!!

2007-08-28T21:31:00.001-05:00

Whirlwind

2007-08-28T20:11:00.000-05:00

...my life :-) Lots of things going on! Ups, downs, whirl-a-rounds!!! I will be back momentarily once things settle :-)

Love you all and pray for me!!!

besos & hugs,

*B*

Cancun Pictures!!!!

2007-08-26T21:34:00.001-05:00

Finally posted below!

Check out my Slide Show!

2007-08-26T21:28:00.001-05:00

Check out my Slide Show!

2007-08-26T21:10:00.001-05:00

It's my B-Day!!!

2007-08-26T19:32:00.000-05:00

And I am twenty-six years young!!! :-)

This weekend was a blast! I shall post pics and stories this week!

Besos,

*B*

My Birthday Shoes

2007-08-21T20:28:00.000-05:00

To go with my Birthday Dress!!! I just took it to Nordies to get it shortened, LOL! Hey I gotta show off my hot, sexy legs! And what better way to do it than with some hott gold platform, stillettos!!!! AND, being the fabulous fashionista on a budget, the shoes were SO affordable, I'm going ALL out for my accesories!!!! Here they are! I'm getting so excited!!!!!!

My Birthday dress!!!

2007-08-19T21:07:00.000-05:00

This is my fantastic and fabulous dress that I will be debuting for my fabulous birthday bash! :-)

I saw it online at Nordstrom.com in the BP dept and knew this was my dress! I had seen a dress similar to the way it is designed at Macy's but it was cut all wrong! But this dress is a winner! I called one store, they had it, I put it onhold and picked it up Saturday. Slipped it on and viola! My b-day dress!!!

Now I just have to pick up some fun accessories! I have shoes, but ofcourse I want new ones, lol! BUT being the fantastic fashionista on a budget, I may forego the new shoes for tons of new accessories; afterall, the shoes I have in my closet will more than suffice!

I have already picked out my makeup for the evening, lots of golds, bronze and the like. I will be heading to the MAC counter after work to have them apply my ultra fun lashes and shoot! I may just have them do my makeup!

I seriously can't wait for this weekend! I will be getting tons of rest, taking my vitamins, getting up for morning jogs and not working too hard this week lol!

Hope you all have a fantastic week!!!!!!!!!!!!

Besos,

*B*

Follow up & new day!

2007-08-18T09:38:00.000-05:00

What up!!!!

*B* is in a new and even more fabulous place than she was yesterday!

Today is a new, wonderful, fabulous, bright, God given day!

I LOVE TODAY! I LOVE IT!

That post below is the most raw emotion you will EVER see from me period. Today is a new day and I am feeling like a million bucks! nah, scratch that, infinity bucks! lol! Anyways! I went to bed last night in a medicine induced haze, i'm still sick from Mexico, and woke up with a big ass smile on my face! I never question it when I wake up with a smile on my face; I just thank the Lord for a new day and a new attitude!

I seriously feel like a weight has been lifted off of me! Every single thing happens for a reason and for that I am ever grateful! God is always looking out for yours truly! Trust. I seriously don't even care about the situation from last night. Like, it's like I got what I wanted; the mind eraser. Life is what it is and I'm going to live fabulously regardless!

Today I go try on my Birthday dress! woooo hooooooooo!!!! I am SO EXCITED!!! I hope it's as fabulous as I think it is! And if not, no worries, I will head over to Georgetown and hit up the boutiques because...today is a fabulous, beautiful day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Luv ya all! Hope you all have a FANTASTICAL weekend!!!

*besos*

*B* Fab

Confession Session part deux

2007-08-17T22:12:00.000-05:00

I have to admit something. And it's so hard to admit, but right now, this very moment, I feel so hurt, sad, and upset.

This year with men has just been way too much for me. All these mf emotions. What are they? Why do they exist within me? Why do certain men have such a strong affect on women; me??

I can't call my friends because frankly, I don't know how to explain it, and I think they wouldn't know what to do, b/c well, I'm quite emotionless (or so I come across). When I get like this, I don't know what to do but let it ride. *mind you, it's only happened like 3 times in my whole life, but I'm really truly so confused*

My emotions are all over the place...let me explain...

I met this guy in June. We have been talking for quite some time; like we are best friends. (yeah, yeah I haven't written about it b/c I didn't want to jinx it) But true to form and what is the roller coaster, clusterf*ck that is my life, shyt just got real f'd.

He was supposed to come through on something really very important to both of us, and well, I'm at home, pissed as I don't know what, without so much as an explanation....*surprise, surprise* I guess, but I'm mf hurt by it.

I seriously don't even want an explanation. I want nothing. All I want is a mind eraser; not the drink, but like the ones from the movie Men In Black. I'm serious. I want to forget everything. And I will, trust. My heart, is seriously a cold stone. It's going to stay that way for some time. I'm sick of all of the BS that comes with men and their mf 'promises'

No, I'm not that dumb, naive type that believes everything, or anything for that matter, that a man says, but this is on some whole new level. I'm not going into detail, I just needed to get my thoughts out. I felt/feel crazy.

I'm going shopping tomorrow. I think I may have found my Birthday dress! *smile* I can't wait to go try it on.

My heart is forever changed...into a stone...it will remain.

sadly,

*B*

Confession Session

2007-08-17T14:40:00.000-05:00

I have a confession...

I like someone. I think they are damn hot! I would do many naughty things to this person, LOL! This person plays. I think they are unavailable, emotionally and taken; they just like to play. I like to play too, except, I think they are really hot and I like them hahaha!

Maybe one day I will write another Confession Session telling you all of the naughty things we did hahahaahahahaha!

You see where my mind is today....la la la la la...gutter hehehe!

PSA for My PURPLE World

2007-08-15T09:21:00.000-05:00

...I am alive! haha! I have just been SOOOOOOOOO sick since I got back that I can't hardly function! I will have a recap of my Mexican vacay by this weekend, I promise!

I hope you all are doing well and I can't wait to tell you all about cancun and show you the G rated pics ;-)

*besos*

*B*

Viva La Mexico!!!!!!!

2007-08-07T10:14:00.000-05:00

Hola! y ¡adiós!

Your girl *B* has officially checked out!

I am 'working' from home and packing! About to head out and get some last minute stuff and then I'm off to sun, sand, hammocks, swim up bar, all the drinks I could ever want and the beautiful turquoise waters of the Caribbean!!!

Peace out yo!

*besos*

The return of the youngin Part 1

2007-08-05T19:28:00.000-05:00

Hola peeps! I hope you all had a fantastic weekend! Mine wasn't as eventful, nor as fun as last weekend, but the church I went to today made up for it!

Onto the 'youngin' So ofcourse you all remember my below post about how he completely dipped out of town sans comminication. Anywho, so just like a male, he decides that now that he wants to comminucate, I should want to too. LOL! He MUST not know who he is dealing with.

Here's the scoop(this is a tad bit long, but fun reading nonetheless):

I check my email, that I hardly check, and find an email from him that he sent on Thursday. Our conversation is thus:

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Him: MISS YOU !!!

Me: o. u do

Him: yesss

Me: interesting.

Him: y ??

Me: you make time for who and what you want so...

Him: i been pressed since i came back

Me: and what does all that mean?

Him: i want to see you

Me: o k. y now?

Him: because im done with finals and im back in town

Me: hmmm ok. That's all well and good, however, actions speak louder than words.

Him: so wen can i see you

Me: that depends, what exactly do you have in mind

Him: seeing you ??? y u actin ike that ???

Me: 'Youngin', I'm not acting like anything. Normally when people say they are going to get together with me and then they fake, I really don't have much to say to them. But now you say you "miss me" and "want to see me". pardon me for being skeptical and not jumping up and down just because, now that you have 'time' you want to see me. and furthermore, I am interested in dating, going on dates etc. if that is not what you are interested in then we have two different agendas.

Him: i thought we were dating

Me: ok. first, perhaps you should get to a phone and give me a call? secondly, how are you just not going to address what happened the day before you went out of town? Third, when I'm dating someone, it's not a question of 'i thought we were dating'; I know we are dating by how much we are communicating and spending time together. I was interested in getting to know you, but you seem like you def have alot of things going on and perhaps not enough time to dedicate to dating me. Especially if you can be ghost for like over a week then pop up with "i miss you"

Him: we will schedule something

Me: LOL! simply hilarious! Thanks for my biggest laugh of the day!
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OK, WTF hahaha! seriously! funniest thing E V E R! He's a simpleton that I have ZERO time for! So between the 22 yr old popping back up and the 30 y.o. 'hustler'(w/ 4 rugrats) asking me to be his girlfriend(long story, I may do a post on it before I go to Mexico), I've had a very interesting past couple of days.

Onto much better things........in 3 days, your fabulous *B* will be on a plane to Mexico! ahhhh, pure bliss and paradise awaits yours truly! Have a fantabulous week, lovlies!

*besos*

Bianca's Fabulous Birthday Bash!

2007-08-01T09:09:00.000-05:00

So I have decided on a venue for my Champagne Birthday! and it will be at DC's newest, and hottest, IMO, spot, IBIZA! I fell in love with it when we went to the opening back at the beginning of July! Pure fabulousness! Swanky interior, mucho bars AND a rooftop area; I fell in luv!

So what better place to have my soirée than at Ibiza! I am going to do it 'big', get a table and all that and bottle service all night; gotta have the champagne flowing!

Now here is the fun part: only if you want to, feel free to contribute to Bianca's Fabulous Birthday bash by clicking the button below. ALSO, if you are in the DC area and you wanna come partay with me, let me know! Stop by, say hi and have some champagne!!!

Friday August 24, 2007 - save the date LOL!

*besos*

Funniest quote EVER!!!!!!

2007-07-31T10:00:00.000-05:00

"Whenever I felt lonely, a Double Whopper with cheese became my friend. If I felt sad, six strips of bacon made me feel better."

damn Star! If my friends were, bacon, frozen horse patties and french fries, I'd go get gastric bypass too! LOL hahaha Sorry, but this made me laugh!

Had to take a break

2007-07-30T11:40:00.000-05:00

So I went to ULTA to get my nail polish fix! I am in desperate need of hot new nail polish because I am sick of the ones I have. I have been looking for the perfect gunmetal nail polish and found it in Hit Me With Your Best Shot by Lippman created with Pat Benatar, but alas, ULTA did not have it!

So I wandered over by the Essie and OPI nail laquers, my ultimate faves, to check our their silver polish offerings. The OPI silver polish was wack, LOL and came out too sheer. I found the Loophole polish by Essie and instantly fell in love! It reminds me of my old skool Revlon silver from highschool; why did they stop making that color? Anywho, then I also fell in love with the pretty coral, Click it or Ticket. So I was in a slight dilemma, do I get both or just one? I LOVE a sparkly, sheer, coral for my toes in the summer; it's so fab! So while pondering what I was going to do, I happen upon this nifty little four pack containing: Loophole, Click it or ticket, Huckle Buckle (a very yummy sheer lavender) and Below the Belt, the white polish. Everything I need for summer all in one case! Now, why didn't I discover this at the beginning of summer!? Oh well, the minis will last me through the rest of summer and a bit into fall.

My fantabulous weekend!

2007-07-30T07:50:00.000-05:00

Good morning all and happy Monday! I am on the serious countdown to Cancun! 9 days people, 9 days!!! Anywho, I hope each and every one of you had a fantastic weekend! b/c I sure did! I will break it down by day...

Thursday night:

Got to hang out and chill with my people from AOL that I miss dearly! It was like college all over again! There was a keg of Miller Lite(mother's milk, LOL), beer pong, flip cup and one of those tables with the soccer players but it's not called soccer? Oh, and JELLO SHOTS! yay! all of this on a Thursday; gotta love it! That is me, my girl Nik, and my homey Kirsten! Love it!

Friday:

Was a day from hell, but the night surely made up for it! We were supposed to go to Jazz in the sculpture gardens here in DC but the weather was not being nice! We decided to go home, nap, get refreshed and go out that night instead. Our plan was to go to this spot that is free all night and open bar till 11, then hit up Adam's Morgan since it was such a nice night out. We finally get into the spot, only to have about 20 minutes of free drinks...we made our way to the bar and double fisted to get the full benefits of the open bar, LOL! anyways, the men in there were um, not cute, but whatever we danced and danced and danced all night! Took it to Adam's Morgan to get some much needed food at the Diner and met some really cute and smart boys!

Saturday:

I went to my family reunion and now that I'm a vegetarian, found myself quite hungry seeing as though all they had cooked up were hot dogs and hamburgers until the real food was served. I survived off of fresh picked peaches and some chips. My family threw down on the seafood! Soft shell crabs, whiting, shrimp! I was in heaven!!! You know I took a full plate home with me haha!

That night was this party that is thrown monthly at a very nice and swanky location. Catering to the professional and grad school crowd, only 23 and up, we knew this would be a nice night. Indeed it was! The line was orderly and moved quickly, check. Every girl was dressed up in dresses or skirts, check. The men, the men, the men haha they were all dressed very dapper as well, gotta love it! There were no white tees, timbs or jeans in sight, this was definitely a good night! The place was packed, yet not all gross and sweaty like a club. No disrespectful men grabbing and pulling; just gently placing their hand on your waist if they wanted to dance. Such a nice affair it was. Good music, good drinks, fabulous people! What more could we have asked for!

This weekend was exactly what I needed! I thoroughly enjoyed myself and am looking forward to August 18th which is the next event they will have. If you are in the DC area, holla at me because this is an event you shouldn't miss ;-)

I hope you all have wonderful work days this week! Pray for me ya'll, there is stuff going on at my job and only the Lord can fix it! I know He will! :o)

*besos*

Seriously

2007-07-26T18:25:00.000-05:00

Ok. So here's an update on youngin. I think he's shady as a mf. We haven't seen each other for a week. Fine, I can deal, b/c I have been crazy busy with work, you have NO idea and he's doing his graphic design crap. Anyways, so he's going out of town this weekend and we made plans to hang out before he leaves. He is only going away till Monday, but still, we haven't seen each other. Anywho, he's being SO ultra shady!

Shock? no Surprised? no Disappointed? not even Annoyed? nope Why? because he's a male and males do the most assinine, inexplicable things. How are you going to be all about me, then be mad shady when we are supposed to hang out. Clearly he does not know me and doesn't know my policy on shadiness.

Shady=I drop you, just like that, never to speak to you again. I just don't have the time.

I suppose I will keep you updated, but I can see how this will end, or how it ended. smh. NEXT!

*B* over and out to go shake my ass at the club LOL!!!

I just...

2007-07-25T11:55:00.001-05:00

...fell.in.LOVE.
spotted at K Dukes via My Fashion Life

Kid for a day!

2007-07-22T20:59:00.000-05:00

Today, I was a kid! :-) I didn't feel well all weekend and my mom could hear it in my voice so she told me to go over to her house yesterday and hang out; so I did. I went over and laid around in her fluffy couch and fuzzy blanket watching regular cable television and didn't care!

When she and my 9 year old brother got home from the baseball game, we watched the Discovery channel, Man vs. Wild, giggled and cringed together. (Seriously, if you haven't watched this, you should see a couple episodes; just do it!)

My little brother and I stayed up till like 1 watching Disney channel re-runs and the like. Ofcourse though, we overslept and didn't make it to church, shame, shame! But I did make a huge breakfast for the little tyke. He gobbled it up and ran outside at 10 o'clock on the dot and began ringing doorbells. Ah, remember those days!

Anyways, After my mom got back from singing in the choir, I went home and got ready for the day. She was going to make Sunday dinner so she wanted me to come right back! I did a little cleaning then went back over to hang out. I sat on the deck, soaking up the rays, reading all of her InStyle's, Town & Country's and Essence mags. After I got bored with that, I ran around with the little kiddies at the park.

It was so peaceful despite their little shrieks here and there and the occasional tussle. Reason being, the tire swing. There it sat, separate from the rest of the play area, a lone tire swing set against a dense little forrest. My eyes lit up and I ran to the tire swing before any of the little rascals could get to it first! I sat and twirled and kicked and pumped for about an hour lol! It was SO MUCH FUN!!!! The slight breeze on my face, sun coming through the trees...ah nothing in the world mattered while I was on my tire swing.

Then it was time to go in. I rounded up the kiddies and we ran/rode/skated back to our houses. I'm telling you, best day everrrrrrrrrrrrrr(If you watch SpongeBob, you know the tune!)

So now I sit in my very grown up condo-for-rent, watching Devil Wears Prada for the upteenth time on HBO preparing and thinking about the week ahead. I'm also successfully ignoring a very insane certain someone who breezes in and out of twon thinking I am to adheer/adjust to his schedule, psssshhhhhhht!

I hope you all have a FANTABULOUS week! And if you get the chance, go and be a kid!

*B*, over and out!

P.S. - aren't these the cutest little girls on their tire swings!

Sale ish!

2007-07-22T10:06:00.000-05:00

Was browsing my fav site, Urban Outfitters, for their sale stuff and I found a shyt load of things I need to add to my wardrobe, stat! Check it!

Funny, Funny

2007-07-22T09:56:00.000-05:00

LOL @ the damn picture and LOL @ this stoopid story! LOL! I thought he was the underground king? Guess not so much!

Block

2007-07-20T15:32:00.000-05:00

Writer's.
Thought Process.
Life.
Emotion. - sadness, hatred, disappointment, lonely, tired, confused, depressed.

Closing my eyes until tomorrow.

Second Chances

2007-07-16T08:14:00.000-05:00

None of you know, right now, just how happy I really am! I am ecstatic!!! I just wrote this post last night about effing up a relationship and woke up this morning to an email that made me smile...oh and tear up a bit. Remember how I said to say all the mushy stuff and express your feelings no matter what, well I did just that after my ridiculous argument/fight I caused on Saturday between me and him. He wrote me back saying he still wants to see me and work it out :o) *swoon*

I better not mess this up, for real. I mean I really kirked out on him on Saturday, like to the extreme. This totally says a lot about him as a person and definitely makes me want to straighten up, LOL! I am looking forward to what our relationship can become. I hope our friendship and bond strengthens everyday so we can be the people we both want for ourselves.

I seriously did not think that this would work out in my favor, but the fact that he is willing to give me another chance is so wonderful. Guess I will keep you all posted!

Over and out,

*B*

Golden (Champagne) Birthday

2007-07-15T21:03:00.000-05:00

On August 26, 2007, your beloved *B* will be 26! whoa to getting old so fast LOL! but YAY to my golden birthday! I need some suggestions for what I should do!

What did you all that have had your golden b-day do?

I've done it again!

2007-07-15T18:20:00.000-05:00

Yup, Bianca has YET a-DAMN-gain ruined a perfectly good, healthy, loving, nurturing, ADULT, could-see-the-future-together WONDERFUL relationship; P.S. that is the second one in three, yes 3 months! WTF!!!

What is wrong with me!? Seriously, clearly, it is me. And that makes me so sad. Why is this happening you ask? Well, I will tell you...

...I trip and flip out over trivial, petty shyt. Yes, that is my fault. I'm talking shyt can be SO sweet, going so so well. Then, something will set me off, and that.is.it.

I truly am upset right now. This guy was something so special. He had a light about him that attracted him to me so much more. He is so determined to make something of himself, all I want to do is help him along the way. We grew so close over the last month, it was like magic. But alas, abracadaba, shyt is over, all because of me. And no, this will not get a second chance. That bridge is basically non existant, blown up never to be rebuilt.

I'm sad. It didn't hit me until this morning and my bed was empty because we had a fight last night. I'm sullen. I will get over it.

*B*

Rememberance

2007-07-13T07:39:00.000-05:00

Today is my friend, Kristen's father, William Hill's home going service. Please keep her and her family in your prayers as they go through this day, and those to come.

I listened, for once

2007-07-10T19:29:00.001-05:00

Was talking to one of my boys about how much I can't stand that damn NeYo song, Do You. He just laughed because he knew why I couldn't stand to hear it or think about the words in the song. SO he gave me some unsolicited advice, he told me I should speak to the person with whom the song reminds me. I then laughed because I thought that was the DUMBEST thing EVER!

Well, just so happens I couldn't stop thinking about doing just that. I didn't know what the f I was going to say but I needed to speak with this person. I did. And I'm glad I did. Quite a few things were resolved and I feel a bit more at peace with my decision.

Anyways, I also think life is just too short, as evidenced by my friend's father's untimely and horribly surprising death on Sunday. Your time and days are not yours. Don't leave things unsaid. Say I love you to your family and friends every chance you get. Spend time with your grandmother or grandfather if you are so lucky to have them still in your life - I make it a point to go visit my grandmother every chance I get because I do not know what I would do without her.

Even if you think someone doesn't want to hear from you or you can't fathom saying mushy things (lol, that's so me) say them anyways! They will so appreciate it.

That's all, *B*

I'm going green

2007-07-10T15:36:00.000-05:00

And I'm going to be a vegetarian. Are any of you vegetarians? I know I can't go Vegan because there are certain things I would like to be able to have ever so often such as eggs or cheese in my eggs, but other than that, I can do without the meat; I don't eat much meat anyways. I recently fell in love with Whole Foods, albeit, the prices are dumb, but I think it's so worth it to cleanse my body of years and years of toxic stuff. I stopped eating frozen/processed meals probably like 6 months ago, but it's hard to not get food that isn't processed. Hell, some healthy food is still processed!

I recently, since beginning boot camp, have added tons more fresh veggies and fruits to my daily food intake. Like, now I do not feel complete if I haven't had some veggies or fruit. Don't sleep on the healthy produce, it truly fills you up! I go to this Asian mart and get all of my healthy, fresh produce for dirt cheap! Today I picked up some brown rice rice cakes, fresh made hummus and almonds from Whole foods, only ran me like $5! I think that if I shop smart at Whole foods and get the rest of my stuff at the Asian mart, eating ultra healthy/vegetarian won't be so bad!

Today I am cleansing because I ate yucky food yesterday due to being stressed out! And my body did not take too well to it. So today I've had celery stalks, pita and hummus, baby carrots - those are my fav, tons of water and a granola bar; I already feel lighter and better. I think I will detox for the rest of the week because we ate bar food and my body is completely revolting against me, plus I need to get on the treadmill. Anywho, are any of you vegetarians? If so, give me some tips!

gracias!

My drunk dialing escapade

2007-07-09T08:23:00.001-05:00

Continued from below post, here is my early morning adventure in drunk dialing...

So of course your girl was right toasted since the bartenders were pouring lovely amounts of Vodka in my cup lol and I took it upon myself to call a few BASTARDS that never received the proper curse out for their foolishness! To one's chagrin, he picked up the phone at 4 in the morning, LOL sucka! I heard his girl in the background too lol hahahaha! I let him have it! I just hate his stinking guts! He makes me vomit! He's the scum between my toes LOL ($50 to anyone who can tell me what movie that is from! - real talk) Next dude, was smart LOL because I got his voice mail hehehe, I dropped my phone mid message, pulled over, picked my phone up and continued my rant! I just had to let him know, in no uncertain terms, that he was in fact a piece of sh!t! :-)

Don't you know this bamma calls me at 9 damn AM! and I grabbed the phone to make it stop ringing and it's this dumbass! Talkin 'bout, so that's how you feel about me, why's it gotta be like that!? WHAT THE F*CK! Why do you CARE how I feel about your slum ass! huh? why! Then this imbicile goes on to say "It's not that I'm ignoring you, it's just the person I'm with right now is over protective - ummmm who the fuck cares(that's what i was thinking) He continues with "I know you, and if she had answered the phone when you called you would have cussed her out" - wait, let's pause for ONE moment here, B is a grown ass woman, and unless said "person" has done something to me personally, I have zero reason to kirk out on her, so lame-ass, no i don't have TIME or the ENERGY to cuss out some female who may or may not answer your phone - seems like he was waiting for that exact moment - shit face!

Anywho, so I let him talk, btw, the whole time my ass is uncontrollably LAUGHING haha and he can't stand it! I was like, "um, ok so you called me at 9 in the morning to tell me you are with someone? *snickering* He lets out a frustrated sigh and says "I never disrespected you, never called you out your name and now you leave me this message" I said " I just wanted to let you know that you're a piece of sh!t" *more snickering* - I AM STILL DRUNK! - I eventually hang up on him because he is going on and on about how he knows me and now he knows how I feel about him - question, genious, why the f*ck do you care what I think of you? sleep on that

I'm out!

Fantastic Summer Weekend!

2007-07-09T07:57:00.000-05:00

Seriously, there is nothing more than spending a perfectly, fabulous summer day with good friends, oh, and a cute boy LOL! I'm getting ahead of myself. This weekend was sooooo much damn fun!

Friday my girl and I went to the official opening of this new club Ibiza in DC! EVERYBODY and they momma was up in that piece! I figured it would be a huge opening just from all the different promoters who had been promoting for this night. I really don't think the owners expected such a huge turnout! I saw people I hadn't seen in a minute and some I never wanted to see again haha! The night was only made better when DJ AM got on the ones and twos! If you don't listen to DJ AM on the AOL radio, you are crazy lol! I love the mixes he does! He totally made the extremely fab club even more so with the music he was spinning; I danced all night long, gotta love that!

I also have a story that will be in the following blog about my drunk dialing hehehe!

So Saturday comes! Yay! It's BEAUTIFUL outside and I can't wait to go see my friends! I begin my day by going to get my passport photos and turn in all my passport stuff at the post office. I also got a nice surprise from my Young Tenderoni(he's 22)! LOL He wanted to hang out that day and it just so happens he lives right down the street from where I'm going. I told him about the party and he said he wanted to go. Peace, we hadn't hung out much so this was going to be fun. I swing by and grab him and off we go to the party. Now, mind you I keep my ish to myself, so my friends were surprised lol because I don't bring guys around them that often.

Anywho, it was SUCH a fun day! We celebrated a friend's b-day, had tons of drinks and food and lots and lots of conversation lol. Everybody really liked him and kept coming up to me like who is this? you two are so cute! and blah blah lol Truth is, we aren't anything, you know, just in the early stages. So we were having serious, deep conversations all day and ended up on my friends hammock, where we proceeded to fall asleep in each other's arms...awww...yeah, it was cute, a fab end to a fab day!

SO, how was everybody's weekend!?!? do tell!

*besos*

Back in the day...

2007-07-03T09:00:00.000-05:00

When I was young, I'm not a kid anymore...blah! I loooooong for those summer nights of dark tag, and ding dong dash, and kickball in the street, and playing at the pool for 8 hours, street hockey, tackle football, summer camp, the ice cream man - I scream, you scream, we all scream for ice cream!!!!! ah! What I wouldn't give to be a child again and have no care in the world! No fear of bill collectors LOL! Waking up all early because.you.want.to! Running outside to ring your next door neighbors door so we can commence playing for 18 hours!

Being a kid was great! Living at home after college was quite fab too! I was able to experience the glamorous life, if only for a couple years. I recall balling out at the club, which we HAD to go to every Friday - if you don't know about Dream then I'm sorry, plunking down the credit card and leaving with $100 bar tab, but who cares b/c I was drunk as hell and had a damn good time! Remember those days of getting together with friends for a lavish dinner AND ordering drinks at dinner! LOL! So much better than dirty lemon water haha!

When I lived at home, I had the pleasure of shopping in such fine establishments as Needless Markup (Neiman Marcus), Nordstrom - I so miss my discount! If I didn't get it from Nordstrom then I probably got it from Loehmann's - if you do not live near a good Loehmann's I feel for you. Me and my girls used to tear up the one off of Route 50 in VA until we discovered the one in Chevy Chase, MD. ah! It was like designer clothes paradise! Everything that was being sold in the Savvy department was at Loehmann's for nada! Of course we snapped shyt up like crazy! I remember going into my closet and being bombarded by bags and bags of unused clothes, tags hanging off the ones that I managed to hang up lol! omg! I am SO missing my old life!

Anyways, I had a flashback because of course I was perusing eLuxury.com and saw many many things I could so do to have in my possession! A new Louis would fit so right on my arm right now. And some cute new Dior heels...blah! I better get back to 'work' so I can you know, pay bills and barely afford to live after that and my rent is paid!

Viva la Mexico!!!

2007-06-29T07:37:00.000-05:00

So, we have finally picked a vaca destination and we will be booking the trip on Sunday! Woo hoooooo!!! Seriously, I need sand, sun and water right.now! Oh, and a swim up bar, a few hammocks and all that comes with an all inclusive! Me and 5 of my friends, yes, Cancun is NOT ready, are going to be living it up in Cancun at the Barcelo TuCancun all inclusive resort in August! OMG! You have no idea how much I deserve this vacation! Nor do you have any cue to how much debauchery and mischief we will get into, hehehe ;-) Anywho! I can't wait and I had to share so...

Viva la Mexico!!!

I'm down with OPB, yeah you know me!

2007-06-28T13:56:00.000-05:00

OPB - Other People's Blogs

Swizz Beatz song, No Money in the Bank is taunting me today LOL, because well, I ain't got no money in the bank, BUT I'm not walking around acting all stank. LOL! Anyways, was doing my daily round of blogs and happened among the following:

*Find out how to be a Skinny Bitch over at Style Dash

*Check out Fashion Kitty to find out how Posh stays so fly

*Go try and say something nice over at Crunk + Disorderly, I dare you, TRY! Because I couldn't! Those b*tches look a MESS

*But before you leave C+D, please take a moment of silence for this sad, sad woman

*Say 'Oui' to this hot ring by Dior via K Dukes

*I'm glad I wasn't the only one who thought J-Hud could have used a pair (or two) of Spanx! - Bougie Broad

*Ummm, when will Isiah Washington shut the hell up!?!?!

*This simple b*tch and her fake ass get on my nerves! Check out The Skinny Website to see if she has gained weight or not

Ok, peace out people!

Pour some sugar on me!

2007-06-21T17:15:00.000-05:00

So as I was surfing the AOL Welcome Screen, I came across this article on how to beautify your skin during the summer. Carmindy, from What Not to Wear, gives 8 great tips to keep your skin sparkly and a-glow during the summer months. I immediately ran home and added a bit of sugar to my face wash and let me tell you! F-A-B-U-L-O-U-S! That is how my face feels! I don't keep sugar in my house, but I took a little packet from work, LOL, and added it to my facewash! Feels like a dream! This will become a weekly ritual to go along with my Tone Sugar Scrub body wash I use.

Check out the tips here

Then, I went over to the ever-fabulous Tia Williams' blog, Shake Your Beauty, and found an un-lipgloss, lip gloss that I will be purchasing this weekend. Read below for Tia's review:

LORAC GLOSS STICK, $15: I've found it! Chapstick that doubles as a clear lipgloss! Lorac's Gloss Stick is the perfect thing on those cutoff shorts and wifebeater days, when you're makeup-free, but still want a little "oomph." It's blended with sunflower and macademia seed oils, so it's seriously moisturizing--but this tricky little stick also give lips major, Jerry-Hall-at-Studio-54 shine. And the all-natural vanilla scent makes me happy.

Dear W magazine editors...

2007-06-20T10:18:00.001-05:00

Your magazine SUCKS as of late; let me explain myself. While I was bemused at last month's offering with that crazy bitch Naomi on the cover and was dazzled by her outfits and uncanniness, I am a bit annoyed/un-dazzled by this month's flimsy magazine. I think one of the best articles ever, was the one from a couple months ago with Imelda Marcos. Your magazine has failed to wow me for a while now, but this month was just no excuse! That lame Gucci ad that I was bombarded with in the first flip of the page was "underwhelming" as well as the what, 50 other pages that remained to be flipped and scoffed at.

This magazine just sucks! You have nothing to write about and omg! the photo spread at the end of the mag was just confusing. WHAT, pre tell, were you trying to convey here? I couldn't even look at it again. I just threw the mag down in disgust. I thought I was in for some great photography, maybe even one, just one good article. But no! Nothing of the sort. I don't know if you all are on vacation and couldn't be bothered with this month's offering, but goodness! it.blows!

I hope the Fall issues live up to my expectations, or else! Or else, you will no longer adorn most of my cute coffee table with your lame magazines. Oh and one more thing, can you get a bit more creative with cover models and stories? I mean really! WHO THE F CARES about John Travolta and "those rumors"! Are there rumors about John Travolta? And if so, W, why are you covering a story on them? Really people, I wish fashion glossies would go back to what they once were; FASHION!

Signed,

Disgruntled *B*

whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

2007-06-15T04:42:00.000-05:00

I don't know if it is because I had about 8 Crown & diets last night and Im sick as hell, but I am watching MTVJams and these rappers are so ugly it's nauseating! Why are they so heinous?! goodness! b-o-o-s-i-e ugh! Then there was this gorilla monster who was just grossssssss and all these girls were just all over him! yuck! I mean it literally made me sick! I am sitting here in awe of the ugliness! Good thing Wu-tang C.R.E.A.M. is on - I'm butter pecan/caramel haha. but really, why and when did any old scrawny thing with gold teeth become rappers? when!? they all either need to get their weight up and keep their shirt on - Rich Boy, or put the food down and get a face transplant! haha anything so I don't get physically sick when I watch a video. OMG! have you all heard that song "So Crispy" or something! OMG! if u have had the awful pleasure of hearing the song, have you seen the video! equally disturbing! so crispy my ass! UGH!

Now damn make-up wearing, fish-faced ne-yo is on! gross! gross! At least I can look at Fabolous, I guess. And since when is it OK for a grown ass man to wear a full on denim outfit!? Matching jean jacket AND jeans? um! I don't care if they are red monkey or whatever the hell expensive ass jeans these men are wearing, it wasn't right when we were kids, so it's not right over the age of 25 either!

ugh I have to change the channel! a whole slew of a bunch of uglies are jumping around on my screen talking about that 'white girl' I've had it! MTVJams is banned from my eyes! ugh!

um, random, I know

2007-06-14T08:34:00.000-05:00

But, how do you eat your bagel?... At my new job they have bagel Thursdays; not good for your waistline at all! However, a once anorexic friend of mine taught me a little trick if you simply can not pass up a bagel...you dig out the insides! Genius! So now, I can have my bagel and eat it too! lol! I have been doing this for years and was in the process of doing it this morning when I noticed a co worker doing the same thing! We both laughed because, it's hard to pass up the gourmet bagels they bring in the morning, LOL! So I ask, how do you eat your bagel?

...random post, I know, but it was such a funny coincidence!

Aha!

2007-06-14T07:51:00.000-05:00

So, while out this weekend, my friend and I got to talking about the crazies we have met in the past and we reminisced about the ones who, a.) left us dumbfounded b.) were so ridiculous, it was funny and c.) were the most memorable because of what.they.said. So in that conversation, I was able to come up with the title to my forthcoming book with the help of my girl, Kristen. It's just perfect and lends itself to becoming a quite spectacular read; I have already started jotting out my ideas and frames for all of the stories. I was up all night tossing and turning because my mind was racing and teeming with ideas! This Saturday, while lounging by the pool, catching some rays, I will be on my laptop, typing away. I am so ultra-excited about this! I sleep with a notepad on my night stand b/c I often wake up and have to write stuff down. I should have done that last night, but the rain was too good to me and I stayed cozied up in my covers.

*B* over and out!

My Sexy New Shoes!!

2007-06-12T19:15:00.000-05:00

When I saw them, I knew they were perfect for me! 4 1/2 inches of pure hotness! I wore them out Saturday to break them in, but um, they broke my ass in! LOL! I need to wear them out a few more times until they become a stomping shoe staple ;-) oh! and best damn part...they only ran me...$30 yup! hahahaha

just blogging

2007-06-12T10:42:00.000-05:00

What up world! I felt like I needed to blog and get stuff off my chest, but it's difficult to write it all out. I guess some things you don't want to see in black and white. It's nothing bad or serious, but normally when I blog, it's free flowing and easy. Today, I have started and stopped blogging like three times. hmmm, I don't get it. There isn't anything overly major goings on in my lil ol life. I have a few annoyances, but I just have to take care of them and get rid of them once and for all. Um, I definitely can't wait till I get my new purse! and I really like that Mario song "How can I breathe" or something; it's cute and I like the beat. Gossip sites are ultra boring lately being over consumed by the idiot trifecta a.k.a. - LiLo, Jail bird, Skeletor etc... I wonder what would happen if these simpletons just didn't come out of their house, then I guess people would be obsessed and wonder why they weren't and so on and so forth; lost cause.

Do you ever wake up and feel like, "damn! it's time for me to make my mark in this crazy world!" "It's my time to truly shine." I do, like all the time. I better do something about it, and fast. I'm only getting older, blah haha! I always try to think about and figure out what I would be truly happy doing? I mean right now, besides making that paper, I can't see past that. I mean with major paper, comes a shitty job; in my opinion. I would love to just do something I truly loved in addition to making stacks. I want to be able to do what I want to do when I want to do it. I am sick of being stuck doing, mundane work for peanuts. I even considered being a teacher, LOL, because they get summers off, but then, there is that money thing; there isn't any. AND, I don't too much like children, so, that's out.

I want to pick up and move somewhere else, I'm over this area. It's fun, I guess, but I've had my fun and now I want to go somewhere else. But, in order to move somewhere you have to have a job, a place and a reason lined up, BLAH! I'm sure if I just seriously sat down and wrote out a plan and set goals for each step, I will accomplish what I want to do, but again, that whole job thing gets in the way. I hate working. HATE it! But, oh well, what am I going to do about it - nothing, just work and shut up about it.

So my bootcamp class rocks! I totally love it! I go three times a week and run on the days I don't have it and I couldn't be happier! I am back to working out and getting fit. Only problem, is I have an injury and if I don't do something about it soon, I could seriously injure myself and that I can not do. It just really, really sucks! I just started to really enjoy this and bam! now I'm injured! Truth be told, I just don't want to go to the doctor and they tell me I can't work out or I have to stay off my foot or "take it easy." Man bump that! I am just going to get new kicks and ice the hell out of my injury everyday. I'm a soldier lol.

Anywho, thats' about it from the desktop of *B* Have a fantabulous day people and I will be back momentarily.

*B* over and out!

"medical issue" my ass!

2007-06-07T10:44:00.000-05:00

According to TMZ.com, that simple bitch, Paris has been let out of jail after 5 days...LOL! due to a "medical issue" that no one could speak on, except that she had been "constantly examined" by medical officials while she was in 'jail' LOL!!!!!!! Article

**Update**
ummm, wtf, CNN.com is quoting TM mf Z! what has the world come to! All this over Paris Hilton?!?!

I found a purse!

2007-06-07T08:32:00.000-05:00

And no, it's not Louis Vuitton, Gucci, Marc Jacobs or any other designer...yup! Close your mouths! I have found a cutesy, leather, affordable bag that *gasp* I actually like! Yay me! I'm growing...er, rather my wallet can not handle expensive designer bags anymore! Here she is! I love the ruffle detail and the wooden beads that look like cherries! Oh! and more importantly, it.isn't.black!

Kept Woman

2007-06-06T13:13:00.000-05:00

At this point in my life, I feel as though I deserve to be a kept woman. I am sick and tired of working just to pay bills. I miss my life where I could blow my whole paycheck if I wanted on new shoes, bags and clothes; not to mention partying 5 days a week and barely making it to work the next day. I miss that life. Why is it when you step into Corporate America, life just sucks! I miss my life. Now I work, make some money, pay my bills, by like 1 thing here and there, pay rent, hit up the grocery store a few times a month - I hate spending money on food, seriously; If you came to my house, you'd be hungry lol! - unless ofcourse you like water and/or beer and wine!

So today is simply marvelous out! Who wants to be cooped up inside an office building sitting in a chair and working? Not I. On a day like today, I should be lounging by the pool with a freshly-made Mojito; made just right with the limes and mint muddled with the perfect amount of Bacardi rum to keep me buzzed all day... In the word's of Amy Winehouse, "what kind of fuckery is this!" working 5 days a week, 8 or more hours a day, LOL!

I swear I wish I could do it all again. Just pick up and leave after I graduated college and moved to NY or LA. Pursued my fashion career... or if that didn't work out, marry some rich man who wants nothing more than to see my pretty smile each and everyday!

See when I'm left to ponder the day away, my mind takes me to two places; one place is my life working in a fantabulous job that I bounce out of bed to get to, or the place where work is working out and choosing what dress to wear to the big dinner that night with my CEO billionaire boys club hubby... Whatever I am meant to do in this life HAS to be more than this; it just has to. Otherwise, what am I working for/towards?

Monday Musings

2007-06-04T08:56:00.001-05:00

Hola! and Happy Monday! Aren't you sooo glad to be at work! hahaha! I needed a diversion, already, so I decided to peruse the net for something other than fashion and gossip...news! Here are some interesting things I've read so far:

TIME Mag discusses the Science of Appetite - no wonder we have a love/hate thing going on with cupcakes haha!

Sunken ships and Treasures, oh my! - very interesting in a Pirates of the Caribbean sort of way.

25 Best cities for each age group - I will stay put here in the good ol DMV (DC, MD, VA)

Teen Shopping Habits - Hey, it's from the Washington Post! and my old stomping grounds when I used to shop till I dropped - Tyson's Corner Center

Loudoun County's new jail is maxed out before it opens?

Why is it when something peaceful is going on, someone crazy has to ruin it for everybody? - Remember people, 'crack is whack'

That's all for now peoples, now get back to work! LOL

sugar daddy?

2007-06-03T16:58:00.000-05:00

I want one. Just for when the seasons change so I can beef up my wardrobe and get my shoe and purse game back in check...LOL! I said this to my mom today and she laughed and nodded in agreement. I just want to hold on to the credit card or have access to the bank account so I can do me and holla when I want to see you...LOL! I know I live in a fantasy world, but it should just be haha! I've got it all figured out, so it should just fall into place...I'm silly, I know :o) But seriously, think about it. How nice would it be to just have that disposable income to use for emergencies - vacations, purses, shoes, fantabulous nights out, a wardrobe to die for etcetra etcetera... anywho, life should be so simple hahahahahaahaha!

Handbag Shopping...

2007-06-03T15:58:00.000-05:00

First of all, let me let you know, I am a bag snob. Some things just can't be compromised; i.e. - quality leather, quality craftmanship, and elegance. So yesterday, my faux Marc-y Marc J "stam" bag had it! I have had it with this bag! I HATE it and it's falling the f*&^ apart! And what could I expect; nothing less ofcourse. The reason I bought said bag was because it was to tide me over until I purchased my next Louis Vuitton. Alas! Bills came up and well, life. And so I have been stuck with this, this mockery of a bag, although cute, don't get me wrong, for way longer than I had anticipated.

So I had a mini, Bianca freakout and my mother witnessed it. She was like, "Chile! Do you want to go to Nordstrom tomorrow and look for a handbag? Anything to not have you hootin and hollerin up in my house about a daggon bag!"

LOL I love my mom! She's so cute because she mentioned Coach...awww, I love her, God bless her, but B doesn't carry Coach bags LOL! I'm not 13 anymore. Anywho, so we go to Nordies and mmm mmm mmm! They had all the most supplest leathers around! I was in hog heaven! But, I couldn't ask my mom to bear the price of these bags! The 'cheap' ones started at $475. You should have seen her face. She's like, "Honey, I love you but..." HAHA! I know I know mom, love you to pieces so I couldn't ever ask her to get me a bag that cost that much! So I left with nothing. And am sitting here searching the net for a bag. Although I know none will do besides the Damier Speedy 30, but this one came close...

The Marc-y Marc J Totally Jazz Quilted Bag is sooooo made for me! Do you see the stars! Yeah, this purse is a close second, and is perhaps a tad bit more affordable than the LV at $458

uh...wow, just wow...

2007-06-03T12:44:00.000-05:00

AOL Celeb news has a crazy story about Anna Nicole's sister...folks are just crazy nowadays...

Some questions?

2007-05-29T21:11:00.000-05:00

I'm sure these questions have either been addressed or asked around this here blogosphere, but I was just able to catch up on some weekend gossip and I have a few questions. I was left most puzzled by this one...

*How come Busta Rhymes is going to court for something that occurred in October 2006, yet dirty, i'm-on-everybody's-damn-remix-I'm-a-flirt-black-handsome-rich-and-can-sing-DAMMIT! R. Kelly has YET to have his heyday in court! WHY! And perhaps, more importantly, why is he allowed to put out songs with lyrics such as this:

"I got you so wet, it's like a rainforest Like Jurassic Park, except I'm your sexosaurus, babe.''
- R. Kelly on the song The Zoo - from his new album Double Up

Gross, just gross...

*Why is this stoopid coke head b*tch just going to rehab and got a slap on the wrist for crashing and having COCAINE in her car, but E-V-E got arrested when she crashed?

*How come Beyonce is living my life?

*LOL! Is this what people call 'healthy' for MKOlsen?

*HOW, exactly, did Ty-Ty lose those 30 or so pounds?

*Why is nobody feeding this poor creature?

Last but not least...

*When will all the madness end and I will no longer be bombarded with snapshots of this skuzzbucket's wobbly bits!?

STONE

2007-05-27T12:40:00.001-05:00

"I am a stone; because even when you break me, I'm still a stone." -- some profound twenty-something figuring it all out.

So last night, as I had a mini freak out due to the fact of many realizations and my 26th birthday coming up in August and my recent man drama (trauma), my good friend K calmed, well attempted to calm me down with some wise words of wisdom:

"I know it sucks now, and no matter how much you thought you loved or really liked someone and think that you can never like someone like that or that much, you will find something in the next one that comes around to like or love so much more."

That's the gist, but it made me stop and think for a minute. Yeah, no one is ever going to be like L, but maybe that is a good thing, since it didn't even work out. So all the good, sweet things are just nice memories I can store far, far away and move on; put that focus back on ME! That is where it should have been in the first place, but I got lost in the moment. Oh well. Lessons learned.

So on to me! ME! I have made many "investments" in two Louis Vuittons in the past and in a few pairs of outrageously priced shoes; which have all btw paid for themselves many times over. So why not invest in ME! My investment in myself is my health and well-being. I am putting my all into this outdoor boot camp! I invested in a proper exercise mat for our outdoor "floor" exercises as well as a few new workout fits. Not only can I stand to lose a few, but I owe it to myself to work on and focus on ME! When you don't focus on yourself, you lose yourself; at least, that's what I have discovered has happened to me a few times. I am working on little goals, but the big goal is our vaca to Puerto Rico, oh and getting back in my cute Sevens that I won't get rid of ;-)

Viva la Bianca!

Pommatini

2007-05-25T19:39:00.000-05:00

It's my drink for the weekend! Have a good one people!

-O Organics Pom Italian soda

-Citrus Vodka

yum

B the author

2007-05-24T19:10:00.000-05:00

So, I'm going to write a book; a tell-all if you will. The first will be be very personal as it will be my memoir--yes, I think I am that important to put out a memoir of B. The others will be figments of my wild, thoughtful, and bright imagination. Will you buy them? I will provide sneak snippets here and there. So yes, I will be writing all Summer until my first book is done. I will suck you all in so you can't wait for the next one. I can't wait! I'm getting started right now. yay! It's because I'm a rock star baby! Thought you knew ;o)

My Theme Song [for the moment]

2007-05-24T19:09:00.001-05:00

Thanks Senika for puttin me on to this song! It's our Summer anthem!!

"the World has ended. Heidi and Spencer are Engaged"

2007-05-23T19:03:00.000-05:00

Via TMZ.com

Stop what you are doing. This is a moment you will remember forever. MTV's "Hills" stars Heidi Montag and Spencer Pratt have done it. They're engaged. For now.As Us Magazine just reported, the "world's best boyfriend" popped the question to his 20-(yes 20)-year-old fiancee last night in Santa Barbara. Obviously, she said yes.According to Us, Pratt picked up a diamond encrusted platinum band at Zales a jewelry store in Brentwood, Calif. Don't expect Lauren to be designing Heidi's dress. Her invite got lost in the mail.

WHAT AN IDIOT HEIDI! LOL LOL LOL LOL this TOTALLY brightened up my day! I love when stoopid people do even stoopider things! hahahahaahahahahahahaha!

Rambling...

2007-05-23T08:02:00.000-05:00

So I have a lot on my mind and since this is my public forum, I shall share with you all what the inner-most thoughts of B are at this moment...

-Um, I am constantly thinking about "him" ugh! He sent me an email...I sent one back, now I'm just waiting for this daunting response...WHY! Life should just be simple...Oh don't we wish, or I wish

-This weekend is Memorial Day weekend, clubs are going to be hella expensive, and I want to go shopping, I am also going to have a cook out so, if you are in town, holla

-Work, why must I work? I am ready to retire at the ripe old age of 25, I've been working since I was 14. I should own a damn conglomerate of businesses by now! And a house, and have some investments, and that fab range rover I speak about on many occasions...ok, getting out of hand here, but seriously, I have been working for 11 years for what! What do I have to show for it? um, bills. Oh I do live in a pretty swell apartment...yeah, life's not so so bad. Actually it isn't

-This rant stemmed from disappointment in said male, spiraled into something else...

-I hope this day goes by fast

-I need to speak to my managers - we need to talk-my mind was spinning on exactly what I wanted to say, so I woke up and wrote it down. Now I must speak,yay

-Is everyone else in the whole wide world in love but me? ugh :-(

-It's so nice out this week, I hope the weather holds up for this weekend to lay out at the pool. I'm not going swimming, what with all these chemicals going on in my hair, I'm not sure I'm ready to be bald for June 1st.

-There is a Kappa boat thing coming up, but it's going to be thrown by the same kappas I met in January, a.k.a. lameness to another scale, but hey, I love boats and I love to drink and I love the outdoors; maybe, just maybe the lame lame ones won't be there...yeah right, they have been looking forward to this boat ride since last year......next, I just don't want to run into 2 particular kappas, blah alas, it's inevitable; it will just be another story for another post.

-I have so much to do today. I am going to boot camp. I need an outlet; something.

-Had a really funny conversation last night with my boy, LOL, can't go into detail. well. nah. haha

-I need to move back to Arlington, but I know I will never find a place so big as I have now paying the rent I am paying, WITH a washer and dryer in the unit...hmmm sacrifices, nope, i will just take that 30 minute hike to DC when I so choose.

-That's all

-Thank you for listening

-Goodbye

Daydreaming...

2007-05-21T13:12:00.000-05:00

Was outside on this beautiful, wonderous day eating lunch with my girl and we were talking about those housewivee/moms who always look uberly fabulous, even with the rugrats in tow, out at lunch with their girls and shopping all day at Tyson's Galleria, not Tysons the mall, there is a difference. Anyways, so that spun our minds and took us, well me to a place where I was that uberly fabulous housewife, not house mom. I want all that, minus the ankle-biters, true this may change, but I am selfish so for this day dream, there were no ankle biters in tow....

My day began promptly at 10 when I awoke out of my luxurious sleep after a romp with my fabulous and sexy husband, you know, to send him off to work right *wink* I mean, he's gotta make the money and I want to keep him happy! I roll out of bed, down to my fab kitchen where my chef has prepared an egg white omlet with fresh fruit and orange juice as I consult The View or my DVR'd Oprah. I finish off my light but protein filled breakfast and get suited up to meet my trainer in my backyard gym for some cardio and weights; Hey, I gotta look good and keep it tight for my man. After my two hour session with the oh-so-hot trainer, hehehe, I shower, consult my wardrobe planner and get dressed in something fresh from Paris...

Out the door I head to my gunmetal Range, slip on my YSLs, crank up the Lupe and am on my way for day of shopping with the girls. *because I am assuming they have it like that as well* We all meet up at the Chanel boutique to check out the new arrivals, try shyt on and buy something new. We then head to NM and Saks and get some shoes, a couple new dresses and swoop into the David Yurman section to get a new ring. After all that fantabulous shopping, we are starved! We head over to some posh spot and chill outside with a chilled adult beverage and talk about the hubby's and their jobs. I always make sure I tell my man, "Make that money, baby, don't let it make you," before he leaves. He loves it! Anyways, we chat it up, talk about each of our next out-of-the country jaunts and promise to meet again later in the week.

...what a day dream...

Oh well, I was rudely snapped out of it since my lunch hour was up and I had to head back into my new cube, which btw has a fantastic HUGE window behind it! So, upgrade! yay! Guess I will keep on dreamin....

BootCamp!

2007-05-20T19:58:00.001-05:00

Tomorrow is my first day of fitness bootcamp! wooooo hoooooo! I can't wait! I just went out and bought the cutest yoga mat to match my kicks and water bottle, LOL. Anywho! I wish Harvey from Celebrity Fit Club was going to be my trainer, but I have heard nothing but good things about the trainer. I am looking forward to her kicking my ass, figuratively speaking ofcourse, back into shape! Boot Camp, here I come!

Nick Cannon, DJ? Nirvana & Falling

2007-05-20T13:55:00.000-05:00

I must say that I am in pain. All of the muscles in my legs hurt from dancing, oh yeah and falling, yet again, in public HAHA! Those young whipper snappers last night worked me and my girls OUT! Those sweet little young things and all of their energy made for a very fun night! LOL! I know I'm too old to be in the club (i'm 25 btw) but last night was an exception hehehe. It's nice out people and when it's nice out, I like to get all dolled up and go party like a MF rockstar! Oh, and party like some rock stars we did! First of all, Nick Cannon was the guest dj last night...yeah, I was thinking the same thing too, WHY? Oh, but wait, DJ Nick Cannon is a damn good DJ! I didn't stop dancing the whole time...in 3 1/2 heels, fresh off some crown & cokes and martinis. Not only did DJ NC take it wayyyyyyy back and then bring it up to the present, he played...SMELLS LIKE TEEN SPIRIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG! That is my SHYT! I lost my whole damn mind, felt like I was back in 7th grade and got my headbanger on. LOL After that, my ass was through, I had to go re-hydrate with some H2O.

We chilled at the bar for a minute so I could re compose myself, LOL! then we headed up stairs to get my girl's tab. Now mind you by this point, B was in a state of semi-drunkeness, tiredness and hurt legs haha! We get her tab and walk out of the Penthouse and for some reason, I think that if I step across the threshhold of the penthouse, I will be in the next room over on the deck. See this is where my brain disconnected and my ass fell LOL! I completely missed the two, yes 2 steps because I was in such a rush to get across to the deck because they were 'playing my song!' I can't even remember what it was right now, but all I knew was that i HAD to get over there! So everything happened in such slow motion, I'm still not sure what happened. All I saw was the ice flying out of my drink, and then being helped up by this kind boy. I was DYING laughing sooooo hard, because I didn't know what or how it all happened! I look up at my girl and she is dying laughing too! She's like, 'not again' hahaha! We just laughed and laughed because this is becoming a regular occurance when I go out.

Anywho, all in all, last night was so damn fun and I am just CHILLIN today because I think I'm 21 and can stay out till 5 AM...no! haha Can't wait till Memorial Day Weekend!!!

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Get BITTEN

2007-05-19T08:23:00.000-05:00

"It is every woman's inalienable right to have a pulled-together, stylish, confident wardrobe with money left over to live." - SJP

Did anyone see Oprah with Sarah Jessica Parker's new clothing line? Check out a sneak peek here, BITTEN

The clothes are definitely cute and they are all UNDER $20! There are flats, espadrilles, dresses!, cute t-shirts and blouses, jeans!, skirts and so much more! There is this houndstooth coat for fall that I MUST have! The tailoring is magnificent! I wish there was a picture of it on the website, but trust me, this will be a piece you will NEED in your closet! The collar, the sleeve length, the placement of the pockets, the detailing in the back! It's just fabulous! AND this clothing line ranges in sizes 2-22. It's for every body! Now, unfortunately this line is only being carried in Steve & Barry's, which I have NO idea what that is, but if you happen to live near one, be sure to check out the line launching on June 7. I'm hoping they have an online store because there is no Steve & Barry's near me. I do hope though, that her clothing line is of outstanding quality versus the crap they harold at Target as 'designer'.

HO on the GO!

2007-05-17T04:13:00.000-05:00

LOL!!! A Ho on the Go kit! LOL! hahaha! I found this over at my friend's blog, The Bad Kitty and this can be found for purchase on Patricia Field's site. Quite genious I tell ya! Head over to The Bad Kitty to read up on other fun bad girl stuff ;-)

Am I 12?

2007-05-17T03:53:00.001-05:00

Okay...REALLY!? um why did dude, hahahaha, omg, hahahha ACCUSE me of, wait for it...'calling from a blocked number and hanging up'!!!!!!!!! OOOMMMGGG! Am I 12 damn years old? More importantly, am I PRESSED!? wow! wow! wow! When I read the email he sent talking that mess, I bust out laughing! And called up my girls, LOL! I coudln't believe it! So basically they are all the same! N*ggas ain't shyt but...you know the rest! Even the 'nice'/'good' ones! UGH! They are all just assholes with d*icks! I'm so done. Men are shitty, pointless human beings. I mean does he really think he is going to meet someone like me again? um NO! But hey, it's cool. At least he showed his cards early on right? STOOPID!

Ok, done with my rant. Just had to get that out. Back to the drawing board? Oh F it! It's the damn Spring/Summer! I'm not worryin' about a damn man.

Ummmmmmmmm ReAlLy!?!?!

2007-05-14T19:15:00.000-05:00

This skeezbag!?!?! GUH! Doesn't he know he will get damn fleas with multiple STDs! I tell ya! my new job has me busy, busy, busy! So I rarely get to check the good old gossip blogs and hear and see the dirt! Well, well, well! I stumbled upon this disgusting bit of news via Young, Black & Fabulous and dug around the net for more! This is absolutely disgusting, Reggie Bush! Why you gotta be all over her on the dance floor in LA kissing her!? Why come, Reggie, why? GUH!!!! just plain ol NASTY! They don't call that chick Hodashian for nothin! She seems to me like she wants to be known around the world and the industry as THE number one jump off! ewwwwwww!!!! Reggie, I'm so disapointed in you! P.S. - I still think you are the finest piece of sexual chocoalte, EVER!

Look what I got!

2007-05-13T18:26:00.000-05:00

for $19.43!!
I was on a shopping kick this weekend. I was trying to avoid running into the Louis Vuitton store and coppin' the Damier Speedy 30, so I did some practical work clothes shopping instead! Ofcourse to justify having to spend money on new work duds, I bought a few fun pieces to keep me sane. I randomly stumbled upon these Jessica Simpson Cami shoes at the good old Nordstrom Rack. Now there were two pair, but this particular pair had been "worn and refurbished" and was an additional 35% off of the last marked price of...$29.90! wooooo hooooo! I was like, um 'I just have to get them!' I can wear them a little bit now but def in the fall winter! Oh, it pays to be a savvy shopper ;-)

Party Like a Rockstar!

2007-05-13T08:07:00.000-05:00

Well, that's what I WANTED to do last night! Instead I entered into a near empty club, with WHACK ass music playing AND, AND, AND...omg are you ready for this!!! Some up and coming Neo-Soul artist performing! WTFFFFFFF!!!! I don't do Neo-Soul or anything that sounds like it! And especially not at a damn club! omg! I was so blown! All I wanted to do was party and dance all night long! Ummmmm not so!

So throughout the night, as I people watched, I saw a bevy of um, weirdos enter the club, scan it, find a spot to post up and well, post up! omg! It was just the lamest of the lame! Like a bunch of rejects that left their house and decided to just roll through to check it out! WTF! I party with pretty people, I don't know who or what these people's purpose in life was! But they did serve as pure entertainment. As I began to scan the 'crowd' I saw some celebrities! These weren't your normal celebs, hahaha! Let's see who I saw last night:

'Like Dat' from Flavor of Love 2
Neyo
Musiq Soul Child
Busta Rhymes
Freeway
Sunshine Anderson (actual artist)

LOL!!!!!!!! Those 'celebrities' were not really celebs haha, they just were dead ringers for them! It made my night to see these people! Anywho! That night was REALLY a thrown off night! Not a tall, cute boy in the place! Oh well! Next weekend will prove to be different ;-)

'Spook'

2007-05-09T14:22:00.000-05:00

So today in my travels, I met with a man who had been with the CIA for 35 years! Boy was he entertaining. See I'm conducting this assessment thing for my new job and I go and meet with all sorts of people. Anywho, this gentleman was particularly interesting because he told us some very highly UN-classified (read: nothing too, too juicy, but good enough for me!) stuff. This guy was a character! The stuff he was talking about was so interesting; sounded like a book! He talked about the difference between the FBI and the CIA and other interesting tidbits. Don't want to go too deep into because I don't know if i will be carted off somewhere for even writing about it, but I had to share! It was definitely interesting to hear this man talk! He can speak 4 different laguages, btw and not any normal ones that you go to school for either lol!

It's all about the Benjamins baby!

2007-05-07T21:10:00.000-05:00

But NOT about any damn lotion! Diddy, next time you want to flash some cash, can you please Oil of Olay and moisturize your ashy knuckles. Thanks!

Picture via Crunk + Disorderly

Cinco de Mayo & Gold Cup!

2007-05-04T07:20:00.000-05:00

Equals *B* having a damn fabulous Cinco de Mayo! wooo hoo! It's going to be SO pretty out tomorrow! Perfect day for the races! I seriously can't wait! I have my dress and my shoes. I just have to go get another hat to protect my pretty face from those harmful UVA/B rays ;-) j/k, I just have to have a fanciful hat for the races! It's only proper! So happy weekend and Cinco de Mayo people!!!!!!!!!

I won! I Won!

2007-05-02T17:29:00.000-05:00

Remember that contest I wrote about...So Hollywood!

I won! woooooo hoooooo! I love ThisNext and their contests!!! What is more fun than shopping? Shopcasting ofcourse! duh! If you don't know about it, find out about it! ThisNext is so much fun!

This is what I win! Yay me! I love to win stuff! :-)